Shinigami
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One door closes, another opens
Worried eyes, Katsuo trained them upon Arashi. Indeed, he has been silent the entire duration of the walk. It wasn’t on purpose… Katsuo probably understood why he didn’t say anything. The atmosphere around Arashi wasn’t of joy, happiness, nor was it fear, sadness. None of it would register as such, but Katsuo can come to find as many others would, they can find that he is distant from the world. Adrift, lost to not only his thoughts, but to the path that has been created by Shirogane. Though he is not the only one to feel this way, he felt like he did. Truly… There seemed to be no way past. NO way of knowing if he will truly find peace…
No amount of training...
No amount of meditation…
No amount of tea that he could make or drink to sooth his internal struggle...
Every now and then, Ashi had a peek into the searching eyes of Katsuo. As over-protective as always… A trait that he will miss when he is gone. Ashi knew exactly why he was looking around so much, but there was likely no one with the nerve to approach Ashi with the intent to kill. Instead, they lurked as well, hiding, waiting for the chance. For the chance that Ashi might slip up, that his hollow-side will take over. Optimal reasoning is needed to strike the killing blow. They knew that doing it now would only result in their own damnation if someone succeeded in taking his life. Even then, who will expect him to be alive right now? No doubt that word has gotten around though... No matter, Ashi walked on. He isn’t worried about anyone taking a stand against him. In fact, he will understand their reasoning, but he has no intention of folding to their will and desire for spilling hollow blood…
"Arashi… people may… treat you differently out of fear, if that happens don't let it affect you. It's not your fault what happened, it was Kuchiki-san. If anything, you, Tenzen, and The young pink haired lady are heroes. Unsung heroes. Like the ones in the living world, that do small deeds that go unnoticed to most, but seen by the ones that have watchful eyes.”
He expected his words to be along these lines. His very goal to lift his spirits, it only worked for the moment. He didn’t interrupt him, he only turned his head towards his direction. His smile broadened more to show that he indeed got a reaction and that he at least heard what he is saying, but even Katsuo should understand. What he has become, words will not suffice. A pat on the back will not do. This is long term, Ashi knew that for sure…
Still, his feet could only find the next step ahead of him. One after the other. Still beside Katsuo as they finally make it home. Squad 13. With just a glance, barely, his eyes opened. There are but a few people around. Most are likely to be tending to their own business, handling their duties around the barracks or quickly getting ready to depart to the world of the living. The usual rotation and Ashi is glad to see that some things have never changed. Katsuo called out,
"Oh HAIYIOOOO! Guys? You here? Arashi-san is back! Hey so am I!"
Announcing his arrival and his own. Some approached and shook Katsuo’s hand while he questioned the whereabouts of Oyama, but when it came to Ashi, they only stared at him. At first, it was the length of his hair, it made them hesitant, he looked different, truly. Second came the creepy expression that he had expected them to have already been used to. Not even close… Third, is the knowledge of what happened two months ago. Shy, fearful, angry as their beloved leader has become the very thing they kill. Despite what their eyes and body language would tell, Ashi stuck out his hand for them to shake. Instead, they nodded to him, a few even bowing, before turning away. They knew their place, they had their respect, but it wasn’t the same as before. They couldn’t trust Ashi anymore… His hand fell to his side… He understood more than they knew.
”Stay quiet, Katsuo. Do not say a word. It’s fine.”
Quick to speak, he knew Katsuo all too well. He did not want him to create a scene or cause a ruckus. There is no need, and he did not feel like putting the Squad in a tough place. However, it showed him that his leadership can be handed over to Katsuo and Oya. They will become the faces they can now look up to.
”Find Oyama, quickly. Meet me in the main office.”
No need for a response, as the sudden use of Shunpo is a testament to that. The sliding door to his quarters slid open, but even he wasn't seen opening them. At the exit of his Shunpo, he found himself standing before his desk, with his hand touching the surface. Sliding his finger-tips across the surface, memories piled like the small stack of papers on his desk. Every executed plan, signed document, patrol logs. Eventually, he found himself flipping through the stacks of paper and quickly noticed how badly they are mixed and unorganized. No challenge for him, having been doing this for such a long time. Easily sorted and placed appropriately, but he would have one in his hand, that was delivered today. How recent it may have been, he wasn’t sure.
Reports of Hollow activity within the confines of Karakura Town. Respond immediately!
Pretty much the gist of the message. No rest for the weary and though it may seem that way, this wasn’t going to be a problem that he needed to handle. He only hoped that Katsuo and Oyama are ready to handle this situation and many more that will likely pop up… He sets the report down and places it in a position to where they can easily see it once he is gone.
Ashi took the time now to look around. Noticing how some things have gone untouched for so long. He opened every drawer, noticing that all of the packs of tea he created are gone or have at least been used by him some time ago. He isn’t surprised that there was nothing really left for him to take… Fine, it only made his exit that much easier. Less to haul, he is content. As he makes his way back to the front of the desk, he only leans against, almost sitting upon the top of it. He waits forKatsuo and Oyama to come prattling in. THat picture he mentioned before… Ashi needed to prepare a believable and memorable smile. The atmosphere had to change around him…
”You and me both know if they go to Karakura Town. One aint gonna come back alive. Your punk ass lost to a weakling like Sword Eater. If I was around, he would’ve got so much more than a laser through the shoulder.”
”But you weren’t and that is what made me stronger.”
”Dumbass, you were already strong! You let that soft ass heart get you fucked up! You let the killer inside of you dwindle! All that hate and anger bottled up inside behind that stupid smile. Tuh…"
”Say what you will, it will not change anything.”
”Yea whatever, keep thinking. Before you know it, my hands will be around your throat, crushing it. I’ll bleed your soul and spirit dry, then tak over that husk you call a bo-”
Cut off once again, his counterpart sure could talk a lot, but talk he will. There was truly no way of keeping him from budding in. Even now, still he looms. A broken record in the back of his mind. Constantly playing. Constantly… Playing....